So I'm now in the middle of the Third quarter which is crazy terrifying!
I still have so much to do and not enough time to do it! EEK!!!!
So I've joined a boot camp and signed up for an indoor cycling class. Still trying to learn to run(not doing so good at that).
The Boot Camp is rough but not so rough to stop going. Granted I can't do everything they do just the way they do it or as many times but I'm still moving and sweating and calling out to God for help.(I'm pretty sure He understands where I'm coming from) My sweet best friend went to the first class with me so I didn't have to go by myself. How do people not have friends?
The good thing about the boot camp is everyone is so focused on their own work out they don't point and laugh at the whale of a person falling over like a Rollie Pollie. Again humiliation is a huge incentive to be better. So far I've done only done boot camp for 3 days and it's a 7 week program. Week one down six to go, so Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Saturdays I'll be sweating and more than likely crying.
I won't start indoor cycling until next week and that is also kind of scary but my work best friend will be doing it with me so that's awesome. Things are so much easier with a partner! Kind of nervous about it because it's at the college extension so that just seems like another opportunity for fat girl humiliation. This class will be on Wednesdays and Fridays.
I'm still trying that stupid couch to 5k thing but running just isn't easy for me. I don't think it's supposed to be but I do wish it was! Those people who are like running clears my mind, it's so refreshing blah blah blah. They also need to say it's hard and it hurts. Oh and by the way when you're fat unless you have on a compression suit all that fat is jerking up and down causing a different kind of hurt than just an exercise burn. Can fat be sore from being jostled around? Yes I do believe it can. EMBARRASSING!!!
So see I'm throwing the kitchen sink at this junk! I'm going back to slim fast and adding in some juicing as far as my food intake goes. I'm going to head to the Doctor to get a quick physical. This coming week I have a therapist appointment to start working on that inside crap that tries to ruin everything!
One more quick note about friends - everyone needs them, to have people on your side who care, who you would do anything for and who would do anything for you. Friends who are your family. I am extremely fortunate to have a few people who listen to me throughout this craziness, pray, encourage, and cry with me. I love them and I want to say that publicly!
I'm trying to be singularly focused this last little bit. I'm planning on having a great summer with pretty happy flowers and sun tans!
Intermediate goal is to lose at least 40 pounds before our next biometric screening at work. That happens in mid July, scary times!!
Running hurts. I hurt today.
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Running is really difficult for me. I can do it, my body can do it, but I cannot get the breathing down, my dad used to be a runner, he used to tell me to make sure every third step to exhale and do it in an obvious way so you get in a rhythm of doing it. I still can't get it, after awhile my breathing gets so labored that I feel like I can't catch my breath which just makes me panic and then I stop running. I tend to gravitate towards discs, Slim in 6 being my favorite and then once I mastered that I did P90x which I also love. I have found that I'm less of a fan of cardio and more of a weights girl and due to having PCOS lifting weights and some cardio works better for my body it transforms better and faster, faster results makes me stay steadfast in the workouts. When I don't see results I abandon. I also realize while running may be amazing for some people it's not one of those things that everyone can enjoy and I had to remind myself of that as well. My friend has found running and loves it but I just don't. You definitely have to find something that you love, because when you find something you love, that you can do that you see results doing, you will stick with it! HOpe things are okay.
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